The End is Near...

Phil only has one more month of fellowship! He has worked so unbelivably hard throughout his residency and fellowship. I have no idea how he has had the stamina or desire to get through the training. I can definitely say that this last year has been the most difficult for us (at least for the kids and myself.) He works so much. He goes in around 5:30 or 5:45 in the morning and gets home very late. He often gets home after dinner and when the girls are in bed....even when he's not on call. He has been on call this weekend (Friday-Sunday.) We have probably spent a grand total of 2 hours with him all weekend and part of that time he was napping. It's now about 10pm on Sunday and I have no idea when he will be home. Shoot, he may not even be able to come home tonight....he wasn't able to last night. He has a presentation at work on Wednesday that he's trying to work on in between consults, operations and other problems at the hospital. He is running on fumes.This is not the way I wanted to spend Memorial Day weekend. And I know he would rather be doing something else, as well. I cannot tell you how happy we will be when he finishes his fellowship. I feel like a single parent a lot. I take the kids to do almost everything by myself. I've been doing almost all of the work on the new house. I'll usually pick things out and then have Phil give the okay when he gets home from work (even if he rolls in from work all sleepy-eyed at midnight.) I cook dinner while managing the kids and often eat by myself, or without Phil at least. I am really looking forward to having my husband back. And I know the kids are looking forward to having their dad back. Yesterday, Phil had been at work all day and was finally able to come home to eat dinner with us. He hadn't even been home for 30 minutes when he got paged and had to go back to the hospital. Makena cried when he left. She hadn't seen him all day and when she finally got to, he had to leave. I know it broke his heart, too. Phil is going to have the entire month of July off and I can't wait. The kids and I are going to do our best to soak him in before it's back to the grind. Although, the new job shouldn't be nearly as demanding. I apologize for venting, but we have been through a lot this year and I want to document it. I hope I'll be able to look back in a few years and read this and think...remember that year of hell we went through? Well, it was all worth it. Look how good we've got it now.